There are times in my life i ask God to get out of my way, i'll deal with him later. It hit me how heartless it was and how much it would have heart God to willfully go my way.

It amazing how sometimes i perceive things to be of more importance then to obey God and be Christ like. For example:

• When i am really really angry with someone, i want to deal with it. I want to make my displeasure known. I want to make the person suffer for as much if not more than what i went through. I curse and swear in my heart and rant to someone about the in justice i went through.
  
• The struggle comes in when God speaks. "Hey boy, this is not right" "Do forgive as i forgive you yeah" "You are not perfect either" Words of wisdom which could cut through the heart of anyone.

• When i am tempted to sin my life, please stand aside God. What i am facing now is something which precedes your commands and laws in terms of importance. It won't be right for me to stand behind and do nothing. Whatever consequences of my actions, i'll deal with them after i settle this person in front of me first. Please stand aside God

I can almost imagine the Kodak moment of God looking on with tears in his eyes as you throw your fist at the brother in front of you, when you lust despite warning sirens going off in your head, when you horde all that you have to yourself, when you decide to leave God's community, when you want to do something that is not above reproach...

The next time you think of pushing God aside to do whatever you want to do, to sin, to ignore the glaring consequences which you are thinking of dealing with later... think twice...

If you have not already watched the lifehouse video on God's love for us, it depicts what i have just said above.